Pool Mr Fool

Finally it happened.
wht i wanted. well i
just hope i will rmb
it forever.

cos i cant say much
here. too paiseh...
paiseh?! haiz. tht means
alot.

but cant tell. not
yet...

cos maybe im still
hoping...
still waiting...
for somethng to happen.
or someone...

but tht will never happen.

im always praying
for my happiness. short
n sweet. cos i believe
tht god noes wht wld make
me happy.

well. life has its ups and
downs. thinking too much
pains the soul. so i shall
stop thnking. face wht
there is. n hope for a better
day.

but my feelings will remain
intact.

i will still care for him...
no matter what he does...
what he does not...
what he say...
its love. :)

n it reminds me of this:

i felt like breaking
melting and just not
thinking bout you
im like a piece of canvas

a black one
saddened and darkened
by your mysterious stares
and our relationship that
changed and withered
like a flower unbloomed

but to me there
will still be you
and there will still be me
both, two of us, duo, pair
gazing at a starry night sky

thinking bout our past
hoping bout our future
n beside us will be our caravan
where we learn to live and
live to learn in our
own world

where we're drawn into
it right from the start
where we gaze into each
others eyes and a sharp pang
goes right into our heart

then into our souls
who seek each other since
forever

but u don see this do u
u and ur smugness
i think all tht i have
thought so far was wrong

we've failed even before
we begun cos we never
did begin.
cos maybe its true.

im just in my dream
and im in my own world
one, just me, mono, single
gazing at a blackened sky

cos i know u will never
feel how i feel.
u will never feel for me
i'm going to rebel now
dear...

i can go with anyone i
want perhaps not.
but i will still care for
you. no matter what
you do or say. my love
will still come through.