Now the routine's turning to contention

Now I cannot speak
I lost my voice
I'm speechless and redundant
Cos "I love you's" not enough
I'm lost for words.

This is how im feeling.
I think we're getting distant.
Such that talking to each other
is redundant.

Argg. I think that is how he feels
about me.

Sad situation.

But there's hope.

Let's just say other factors...
other people... other things...
can make me feel happy.

but it's hard.

Especially today.
I just feel crappy thruout.
n yet.. jus now during lunch
i was crazy!!! haha.

took stup vids with fizah. hah.
poor kam's hp.
full of US! ;)
but den i get bck to reality.
n i become so pissed off with
everytng n everyone arnd me.

kam n fizah asked me to relax
dur our hist debate. i was so
heated up. literally speaking
as well..
sorry guys if i seem so mad n
irritated e hell out of u all by
stoning so bad. haha.

well.. i was in a bad mood today.
arrgg. sorry guys.

i was in such a bad mood tht..
i was relli
irritated with e way my frens'
speak. with e way everyone
does their stuff. erm.

its lyk i cant stand certain
things abt certain pple. lyk
pple hu try to hard, pple hu
crave attention, etc. etc.
long story... its just
my personality. hah.

they prob thnk im a bitch.

sorry guys! bad mood ler.
hopefully i change tomoro..
hah.

i realise that im very mood-
motivated. hah. not moody.
just motivated by mood.
my actions r determined by
my mood at times...

most of the times tho i follow
both e brain n heart. not jus
heart. but at times i cant help
it. hah.

yeah. i was so pissy today.
i thnk i have e 'murder look'
in my eye. haha.

den i had to go all e way to hougang
today. agg. to e clinic.
i rushed all e way.
thts a long story too. haha.

i really have no time now. haha.

i jus wanna say tht today i bad mood.
so if i seem diff. hah. sorry.

wah. one last thng.. i miss u. argg.
i indirectly told him i love him. heh.

n i cant believe my classmates thnk
i flirt with ... !? haha. ooh. no names.
jus a 'nice' thng tht seri calls him
mr flirt. haha. :)