Poprocks and Coke

Life is getting better n better.

haha.

perhaps thts the case for me
cos i've just gone through a
whole post-pms, post-anger
stage.

just yest i felt so angry.
so agitated n irritated by
everyone around me.
its almost as if everyone
around me r flies.

haha. hmm. literal meaning?
i thnk not.

so.. perhaps im feeling better
cos my mind has relaxed.
after goin thru a 'rough' few
days, i guess today is considered
a really good day. haha. no
stress.

n.. im not thnking too much abt
certain probs. more lyk other
pple's probs. i jus 'lek one
corner'. haha. wat a right
attitude! :P

Also...
my luck is beginning to change
i guess. today has been really
relaxed for me. the idea of
studying or focusing on other
thngs jus totally burst my
bubble of happiness.

hah. yeah. i still thnk of my
studies. but i cldnt care less.

let my happiness last for at
least one day. or shall i say.
hmm. 12 hrs. haha.

yes. alot of laughter by me.

well. i feel more alive today.

hmmm. i jus feel glad. hah.

ok la..
perhaps there are other
influences as well.

Ok. i have to admit it.
someone made my day ah!

haha. well, thanks so much!
im glad we went out.
cos i feel tht i made a new
fren. so.. its fun ah! :)
plus he's super nice! heh.

n lyks green day :D

but i ddnt only go out with him..
my cousin followed. n erm. lets just
say.. i ddnt relli tell her tht
he wld be coming along. hehe.

hmmm. cheeky me.

:P

anyways.. moving on..
i totally feel puzzled by certain
things.

There are certain similarites n
differences between pple i noe.
I compare pple i noe with each
other. n i get bemused.

i dono.. everyone has their flaws.
but whose are more tolerable?

but its not only abt knowing e
other person's flaws.
but its about the feelings u have
for the other.

arrgg.

to be more specific but
still not givin exact details...
(heh. malu to tell every single
thng ah)

i just cant forget the past.
when there's a present, u still
reflect on the past. U still love
the past n want to enjoy every
memories of the past.

The past will still remain the first.
n the present cant change the
past. The past still remains
unsolvable n i just cant
understand the past.

should we dwell on the past?
and be ignorant of the present.
The past is too precious. Even
tho I know that the past will
never see me as more than a fren.

I'm just a fren of the past.
As time passes by, we will find tht
the past is lyk this. Its just our friend.
It fills our memories. It is our
first love. We can never forget our
past. We can never change our past.

But I feel that the past might
have forgotten me. The past did not
console me. It did not make me
feel better. Perhaps it might all
change. But i don't want it too.

The thought of me living the present
brings me great happiness.
But, the thought of me dwelling on
the past, makes me disappointed
and rejected.

Yet I know...
that underneath it all.. even tho I
try to move on from the past, that
I can never forget the past and will
still love the past.